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Pillars Track List with Lyrics:
Down
Jackson
Passionate Regret
For the Last Time
Tracking
Living Proof
Monkey Games
Clean
Love Begin
Sounds Like
A Window to See the Sky
Pillars
You

Down
I want to write the truth
I want to sing till you can’t see
Cause I’m already going deaf from nights
Of sleepless dreams
the heaviness of these coming down
all these mistakes
I’d pray for intervention but I
Wonder it it’s meant to be this way
(Chorus) At least you sold your soul
That’s better
I have traded mine for weights that weigh
My shoulders burn now like my thighs
I think I might just trade them in now for a clearer mind
For when our eyes meet
(Chorus)
It’s best if these things remain in the shadow
It’s best if you and me leave this one alone
(Chorus)

Jackson
You drop me on the fly
With apathy in tow
A cereal derailing of one’s right to emote
A month of understanding for every veiled joke
You thought there would be more but milliseconds don’t evoke
A sense of feeling
You thought I would be reeling too
Jackson took a yearlong hiatus from the girl she used to know
And purchased solitude
Came and left her broke
A burden in my eyes
Now I’m a liar
Did you think I was blind
You don a grip-a-trip wire
(Chorus) Now you’re gone
Jackson now you’re gone
Can’t curve this one out
No imagine if allowed
Girl you gotta rub these things down
Come down now
Come down now
(Chorus)
I left you cold but I’m not gonna give it up
So give it up why should you stay
I’ve gotten over the lines crossed in the time we’ve lost
‘Cause I’ve given you away
Six finger draw the second time around
Has left another mystery for you and now you’re bound
To all the unexpected turns of luck
Now I am tired
Unprecedented burns from a typical liar (Chorus)

Passionate Regret
I still want to meet you far away from the edge of the landing strip
Where my shoulders are cold but not like yours
Where you’re dying to put your arms around my lips
Where nobody knows us and left to our own devices
We have to answer the question
What are we doing here
Lines are the color of a sunset can’t tell rose or red
No or yes
Eyes are locked and I fear
You are the only one worthy
Of this look reserved for passionate regret
(Chorus) You know and I know
The answers lie unlike our eyes
You know and I know
Silence cocks my head
Till the slamming of a door
Hands slide down towards the floor
Infiltrated
Where rocks become boulders
And the water is deafening
This is what we answer to
Is it worth the grieving
Bittersweet it creeps like delirium
Up my ego and in my love
Once it left that hollow hiding place
It faded back
Chorus, Bridge, Chorus

For the Last Time
From a little ways away
I heard you say you’re right
And I Felt the weight of burden rise
(Chorus) Even as I saw you drift away I tried
I made it seem like the first time for the last time
Oh the last time you
Looked at me with those eyes
Before you knew
Before the compromise
The landing never lies
I would throw me down to carry you
(Chorus)
Truer to form than the form that it takes
I have chosen another to embrace
The racket it causes inside of me
While we bury the burdens we face
Leave me your glance
And I’ll make it all mine
As an answer
For the last time
Leave me your glance
And I’ll make it seem right
As an answer
For the last time
(Chorus)

Tracking
I watched you search until the sun
went down each day
I was right beside you as you found
each one you’d been tracking
bleeding only enough for a weathered
eye to see tell me does that vision
capture life ‘cause I’ve still breath
in me
fighting a greater plan you know I
had put my faith in you but 14yrs
later could make or break the perspective
when I saw your eyes I knew a burden to
bear worth all bearing had found it’s
way into my palms now I am pulling for
you (Chorus) where are we gonna be
when the years go by they are going
btw. us only sea and stars that are
too far from our eyes
healing for you/reeling from you feeling
all we’ll never say healing for the
last time Watch the birds all
flying away you might stop and start
wondering
(Chorus)

Living Proof
When we met
I told you I felt this connection
You moved closer and let me know
You noticed me too right away
And all I could think was that
Is not what I said
Tomorrow will be fifteen weeks
I have carried this
You make me you make me
So aware of every little thing
(Chorus) I can’t imagine living proof
I can’t imagine
It’s the damndest thing
I knew in the beginning this would never be
Chosen by the will to sate this crazy love
(Chorus)
Life would give…
So much to lose
Rewind to before I kissed you
I still had
Before I kissed you
Turn it off
Nothing in the world could
Turn it off

Clean
You tried
I saw you try to lie
In my name
But I covered my bases so you could not
Take them with your words when you ran away
Oh the endings over
All I feared
So much easier to take
Than your promises
Leaving me lame
You’re fucked
In the head
There is no way around it
This is fucked this is dead
It was over before we met
Tools of fate
To teach each other
(Chorus) When to fight
When to walk away walk away
Clean
I wasted so much time living in fear of
Leaving
But you didn’t think I would do it
You didn’t think I would do it
Dangling carrots
To make me stay
To make me afraid
Of the things I won’t get
Without your hand in this
But your hands are trembling
(Chorus)
Bend your knees in honor of these things
‘cause the human soul unlike any animal
will mimic how his body lies

Love Begin
The light is shining down again
It’s time
For the rush, the smoke, and the mirrors to begin
I have needed this for a long time
Now I really want it
(Chorus) We’ve seen it before
One moment changes everything
Don’t know what’s in store
But you are in the forefront of my mind
Life there are absolutes
I believe in this one Truth
We were given this
To go crazy over
(Chorus)
And I don’t care
If I burn for this
Or if you do
There’s only the present
Love Begin

Sounds Like
I light another stale cigarette
And think aga If I saw him again I would smile
Knowing he’s not been wise to every secret
(Chorus) I guess we all face little deaths along the way
I guess we all face little deaths along the way
My arms still ache when I hear something that sounds like
The things he played or the way the other cried
I guess we all face little deaths along the way

A Window To See the Sky
All these things
That we tried to bury have become foremost
In my mind
Have become everything
I will never again see
My reflection the same
Written in these times
Is how we will solidify
What we came into this world with
And how we compromise
(Chorus) Run run before you can’t change your mind
Run run you can’t change your mind
Livin it up child you go and you go
Giving it all away
Livin’ it up child you can’t change
Right when the evening comes
I turn inward to my own worst enemy
It’s poetic and righteous
Look
We are not treading lightly here
Look
What we’ve done is especially clear to
Everyone but you and me everyone but you and me

Pillars
I’m over you know
It took over
Twice what I’d known you before
The emptiness followed by a light
I dare you to think of it now
Serves me right
Plagued by a mysterious shadow in your eyes
Beauty’s mistake has left me here
To recall with a sharp pain
The turn around that turned me down
Hands down to turn another page
It’s real now
It’s real on all sides
A witness brings a change of mind
Now two minds will make a memory remembering
(Chorus) Riding through these pillars of contradiction
I know what I should do but I could also complicate it
Don’t mistake persistence for impatience
I’m over you know
I’m comfortable with edges
I’ve wrapped myself around
The idea that a fantasy
Is spoiled with wisdom be it age
Or broken by the source
(Chorus)

You
I think I know
What you’ve been afraid of
I’ve been afraid too
After so much time
So much love so much hate
To end with nothing to show
Nothing to lose
Apart from your favorite place
Your favorite chords
And the games you play
I don’t even know you
You’ve slipped so far away this time
I’ve had space to recognize
I don’t even know ya
(Chorus) Lonely time
Sweeping memories into piles
I reach you here in this place
Believing time’s deception
The tears will flow
Again when I am not expecting
Your memory to flood my mind
Help me please let this go
(Chorus)